A look back and a look forward...

Taking a cue from Chelsea (even though her post isn't showing up now) I want to reflect on the last year.

In January, if someone had told me I'd be a mom by the end of the year I would have laughed...out loud, like falling over laughing. We had the miscarriage in January and I was certain motherhood wasn't in the cards for me. I was DEVASTATED...and I think that miscarriage may have caused some bonding issues while pregnant this time...obviously not an issue now...anyway, fast forward to April...and indeed motherhood was in my future...and ever since...life has just changed...and all for the better. I've come to know my husband in a way that I've never known anyone. Our relationship reached a new level. Impending parenthood brought out the responsible and intimate sides of us. I love my husband in a totally new way now. My son has made me a different woman, and I can't imagine life without him. I don't want to know what life would be like without him now. The last week has been like a dream Yes I'm tired, yes I'm on edge sometimes...yes I'm learning, but this has been the single greatest accomplishment in my life. I love my son, in a way that I can't describe...in a way that only a mother can understand. My son has definitely been the highlight of my year. and I'm sure the highlight of my life.

I'm definitely looking forward to the first year of his life, to the things I will teach him, and the things he will teach me. I'm looking forward to loving him, and spoiling him, and growing with him. I'm looking forward to the way my relationship with Daniel is going to continue to grow and mature. I love being a parent with him. He's absolutely amazing, and he loves Dawson more than anything, and it's awesome to see them together.

All in all 2008 was the greatest year of my life, and I have a feeling that it only gets better from here.