Wednesday, December 17, 2008

so confused.

I'm torn.
Induction, no induction.
excitement of not knowing and possibly having Daniel miss most of it, and having to have his parents take me to the hospital...vs. knowing what time we'll check in and going from there....
so many decisions. I know once our little guy is here, I'll have to make all sorts of decisions, and the reality is I shouldn't be worrying too much about this b/c he could show up at anytime now and then the induction talk never would have mattered.
I was all set for this until my mother, made some lame ass comment, and now I'm second guessing everything. Will I be disappointed that I didn't wait. Will I end up with an induction at 41 weeks anyway? Will I regret being in the hospital over Christmas Eve? (probably not, my mom (ER nurse) is working, and Daniel (firefighter) is scheduled to work, so I'd be spending most of it without her, and all of it without him.
Let's say I don't do the induction, will I regret not having done it considering I very well could end up with one at 41 weeks anyway?

ahh, I was sooo excited for this a couple of days ago...and to be honest I'm definitely still more in favor of it..but still..it's a toughie.

And I don't think I'm really that miserable either....physically I'm having some pains here and there, but it's the mental thing that's killing me. It was the not knowing when and how he'd get here...and I've felt tons better since setting a date...
just frustrating.

4 comments:

Chelsea said...

It's a tough decision, for sure! But really one only you and Daniel should make. Definitely listen to other people's opinions, but you two should have the final say. What is your heart telling you?

Firehouse mama said...

I don't know, it's hard...part of my heart says go for it, you'll end up with one at 41 weeks anyway, and then the other part says, he's happy and content and he'll come when he's ready....I think I'm just going to stick with it, unless my heart changes on that day...and then I'll cancel it.

Chelsea said...

Sounds good! :)

VelvetJinxx said...

I'd wait till you're more progressed. Here's my 2 cents and I hope you don't get offended. So, I was technically induced at 40w5d (you know my bit & the 3 day labor - I was so mad, I would have induced if I had been zero).

As it was, me being 3cm, we had very little interventions (low pit, no vaccuum etc.) but I think had I gone any earlier, my body wouldn't have been ready. You do NOT want forceps etc.

Progress beforehand = easy labor!