I think if I read another birth story, (except for Chelsea's b/c that's super exciting! Welcome to the world little Benjamin!) I'll cry...a lot. WHY can't my son be here already, and why is he waiting so long? What if something's wrong with him, and that's why he's not coming out? I'm never going to get to experience going into labor on my own b/c I'm convinced that even if I cancel my induction this week, that I'll be looking at an induction at 41 weeks...I just want my baby...I wish I could just have him right now. I hate that all the freakin family is on pins and needles waiting for him, and I just feel like I have enormous amounts of pressure to deliver the goods so to speak, and I can't....Why does my son hate me already? This isn't fair, I was born 4 weeks early and Daniel was 3 weeks early...what's wrong with Dawson that he isn't ready yet....I just want to be happy, and him to be healthy, but now I'm worried that there's a reason he's staying put, and I'm worried that he'll never come...and I just don't want to be pregnant anymore...

and to make matters worse, Daniel is working today, so no one to talk to about this. Not that he would understand anyway, he's convinced that 50 people need to be at the hospital literally waiting on Dawson to be born...ummm wrong...first of all, he's never coming out, secondly, I don't want a effin audience, third I don't want to share my son, how about that!