So about a year ago, Daniel and I decided we wanted to expand our family. In Jan/Feb we had news that we would indeed be doing just that. That was short lived, I miscarried, and I became consumed with getting pregnant again. and Obviously I did.
Now I'm sitting here thinking, there's NO WAY it's been 9 almost 10 months. There's now way that God is trusting me to care for an actual human being....there's NO WAY I can function on the tiny amounts of sleep I'm going to be getting. Wow, I can't really believe I'm going to be a mother in a few days or a couple of weeks ( who knows!) It's still very surreal to me, exciting, but surreal.
I hope it comes naturally to me b/c I'm still unsure that I can handle it. I hope that when I see him, I really do fall in love with him b/c he still feels like someone else's child. I know he's mine. I feel him everyday several time wiggling around...but he doesn't feel real, or like mine.
I wonder how Daniel feels? If I feel that he's not real yet, Daniel must feel the exact same way to an even greater extent.
2 comments:
You'll be a great mom! You already have that protective fire. Nobody and I mean NOBODY better give your baby the side eye because you will protect him!
Look how mad you got over your $600!
(LOL! I'd be mad too!)
thanks Jenna! You're going to be a great mom too! You, Chels and I should get together for a big play date when all the babies are here, and it isn't -52 degress over in your area!
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