Ahh…it’s been a good week. Dawson has another freaking ear infection, but hopefully the antibiotics and drops clear him up and we won’t end up back at the ENT. Secondly, we had to deal with our very first (of many, I’m certain) nose bleed last night. I’ve made it almost 17 months having never seen my child bleed and I was dreading this moment. I didn’t know how I’d react as blood generally creeps me out and makes me feeling all lightheaded and tingly and weak in the knees. Everyone’s blood except for mine and my child’s, apparently. I handled it VERY well. No panic, cleaned him up, gave him a popsicle and all was right in the world again.
Can anyone tell me what happened to my baby b/c I’m looking at a growing little boy and have almost lost all traces of the baby I gave birth to!! They grow up SO fast.
I still have severe baby fever and I’m really looking forward to trying again next summer, being pregnant, and feeling all the excitement that comes along with that.
I have tons of new pictures that I need to share, but I have no USB cable with me today. I meant to grab it last night, but forgot with the bloody nose and what not.
We made the decision to go ahead with daycare instead of the private sitter we’ve used since D was 8 weeks old. It was a very tough decision and finally I just asked our sitter what she thought we should do. She thought and prayed on it for a few days and said she really felt like it was time for D to be with other children and now that he was older she felt like he would be fine. She’s wonderful and loves him very much so I know she really thought about it and that this was a very difficult decision for her as well. We start on 6/1. I’m nervous. VERY nervous about it. I think the daycare will be wonderful, but this is my heart we’re talking about. My life will be in the hands of strangers and that’s difficult to swallow sometimes.
As for me, I’m feeling normal again for a few consecutive weeks! YAY for me! I think I was at an all time low and really needed to pull myself up, put on my big girl britches and ask for the help I needed. Do I have some sort of mental disorder going on? I don’t know. I’m going to go back to therapy and talk it out, but I really don’t know now. I know my hormones were all out of whack and definitely needed some medication to help regulate that. As for the “am I bipolar” question, I have no idea. I do think it’s possible, but I also don’t fit a lot of the symptoms as my “mild mania” episodes rarely last more than a couple of hours (i.e cleaning the house in a hurry at 10PM at night or running around like a mad woman doing errands at 8 in the morning.) So who knows. I’ll explore it, but I do feel good mentally and physically and I’m really looking forward to the summer!
2 comments:
I'm so glad you are feeling better! I can't wait to see picks of D. I can't believe how fast our babies are growing!! My daughter Aubree went to daycare about a couple months ago after always staying with my sister in law. I had a very difficult time transitioning her and ended up taking her back out. Could you please let me know what your experience with D is when you take him? I am thinking about trying to start Aubree again in August being that she will be closer to 2. I think last month was a bad time to start her because she was still in the middle of STRONG separation anxiety. Let me know what happens with D and hopefully both our babies will adjust!!
Oh and I'm glad you got through the bloody nose! Aubree fell last week and hit her mouth and it bled and I swear I was as white as a ghost. I can handle the blood, but I cannot stand to see her in pain! Ugh it tore me to pieces!
Kelly (shih tzus 4 me on December board)
K- this parenting thing is certainly not for the faont at heart! I'll be sure to update everyone on how daycare goes and I may end up doing exactly what you did. We'll see.
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