Minivan vs. SUV-HELP ME!!!

I currently drive a Tahoe. It's large, has seating for 7 and I never ever use the third row because it takes up all of my trunk space. Since it's just currently me, D and hubbie we have PLENTY of room in this SUV.  It's paid for, but it does have quite a few miles on it. It's mechanically sound and has never given me any problems.

We have recently stumbled across a 2005 Town and Country minivan limited (completely loaded with whatever you could think of) that we could basically trade out the tahoe for and still have a paid for car. ( I will NEVER have another car payment) but I'm struggling with driving a minivan. I KNOW that it's more practical with another baby on the way. I know that the stow n go would be awesome, the captain seats would be fantastic and having even more bells and whistles than I currrently have would be great too...but I'm seriously struggling with the idea. Is it because I'm in my mid 20's? Or b/c of the stigma, I don't know...but moms, SUV or minivan? Why or why not?

Some Fears.

It took me a while to get excited about Allie even though she was very planned and wanted. I was so worried something would be wrong and we wouldn't end this journey with her. That's still possible, but I'm very excited to meet her now. I still have some fears though. Like what's going to happen to the relationship with me and D? I mean he's my first born and we're so close that we might as well be attached at the hip. He was meant to be mine and I was meant to be his. Will he feel like he's losing out somehow? Will I love her as much as I love him? Will she feel left out? Will he?

I know these are all fears of second time moms. I know this because I've heard it from countless moms and I've heard that your heart just grows and you just all of sudden have double the amount of love. Well, what about time? I already feel so pressed for times sometimes that it's 11:00 at night before I know it. I know these are all logical fears and I know that it will work out but I do find myself worrying about these things.

It's late and I'm stressing.

I don't often focus on the negative in life because it's just too time consuming, energy eating and depressing...but sometimes late at night something hits me and I can't sleep until I figure stuff out. Tonight it's bills.

Anyone and everyone I've ever known has had some financial difficulties in their lives and I can fully attest to the claim that the more you make the more you spend because somehow, someway, I manage to be broke working full time and not working full time. It's just a vicious cycle. Sure, there's the money in savings that I don't want to touch, but I'm talking about bill money. Broke is just a part of my life right now...and tonight I'm stressing over medical bills from the past and upcoming. When I had D I was fortunate enough to be double covered and didn't have any medical bills. That's not the case this time. Since I'm not working full time my husband is carrying me on his insurance and his alone. I have no idea how I'm going to budget that bill into the monthly bill. And when I stress like this I start fine tooth combing every other bill we have. I'm always looking for ways to save, but you can't scrimp on the light and water bill! I know it's nothing to worry too much over, I'm just thankful to have a home I can afford and a car that's paid for, but it's the little things that manage to frustrate me and overwhelm me at times.

New Pictures of D!

I haven't posted any pictures of Dawson in a while so here's a couple from the last couple of months.

2.5 Year Olds can certainly be difficult

These days, D can be really hard. He's 2.5 (almost exactly) and definitely has a mind of his own. Sometimes he wants to do it all by himself and others he wants everything done for him. Most of the time his quirks don't bother me, but today my patience is thin and his energy and playing and roughhousing is driving me nuts. I love him. I love him more than life itself. I would never ever go back to life without him, but sometimes I know exactly why I worked full time for so long! Although I wouldn't trade this time with him for anything in the world, today I'm feeling the effects of needing a break. So tomorrow I will be doing just that. Taking a break. Some me time. I might even go get a pedicure...and if I wasn't pregnant I would definitely be following that up with a cocktail or two, but I might have to just settle for a smoothie!

Much overdo picture post!

Until about 5 minutes ago I hadn't taken a single  belly picture with this pregnancy, which is strange because I did weekly with Dawson. Either way here's some ultrasound pictures from our 21 week ultrasound and a belly picture from about 5 minutes ago!

23 weeks (almost)

So this Friday I will be 23 weeks pregnant with our 2nd baby, first daughter...probably only daughter because I have zero desire to have more than 2 children....and I've really been neglecting this blog. But for good reason. I have a 2.5 year old that is way more fun to play with than be on the computer. I do want everyone to know that I'm still reading your blogs even though I'm likely not commenting.... (congratulations to Amy and C on the new babies!!)

Nothing new to report on any front here. D is wonderful, baby is growing beautifully, husband is great, and life is good. 4 months til we meet this baby girl!