We are now on our THIRD antibiotic in 3 weeks for the same effing ear infection. Next week I'm demanding an ENT referral!

Happy Thanksgiving!

This year more than any year I have an abundance to be thankful for...At the very top of my list is my amazing, healthy, loving and now WALKING (took off yesterday!) Son. Ill spare you all the emotions of how much I love him, but I am beyond thankful for him. Now, I can't wait to go eat turkey and dressing and mac and cheese and pumpkin pies! And I know Dawson is going to love it too!

11 months

Wow, in exactly 2 minutes, my child will be 11 months old...how freaking crazy is that?!?!? 2 years ago, we started the TTC (trying to conceive) process, and now we have an 11 month old. An 11 month old who has changed my life in every way, an 11 month old who has taught me the meaning of a mother's love...and an 11 month old who is my heart and soul. Being a mom is the single greatest achievment of my life, and I am so blessed and honored to be able to raise my child.

Happy 11 months, Dawson!

48 hours...

In the last 48 hrs Dawson has had 2 firsts...first ear infection diagnosed Tuesday, first ER trip just now. My child who never cries woke up SCREAMING for 2 hours...so up the road I went. Of course Daniels on shift how convienent. My mil did come too, though. After an hour, numbing drops and a new antibiotic...we are hopefully on the mend.

Have i mentioned...

That I love love love Wednesday night tv? Mercy at 8 and Glee at 9...makes life awesome! Oh and today I'm thinking surprise rainbow cupcakes for Dawsons birthday. What could be better than unwrapping a plain chocolate cupcake to find under all that gooey chocolate frosting a happu rainbow?! Of course this will change tomorrow bc last night I was going to bake, create and decorate a fire truck cake...maybe I can do a rainbow firetruck cake? OR I could do zebra!! Yeah Dawson's a boy, Daniel would die if I made a zebra cake.

Dawson's Invitations!!!

So, Dawson is having a firefighter theme party, complete with the party being at the fire department. I knew that I wanted invitations that were classy and wonderful but not too childish or too uppity....so I turned to Janell who is the owner of www.mycardsbetterthanyours.com and www.mycardsbetterthanyours.blogspot.com and she created a lovely card for me, that is better than anything I could have ever imagined...I was totally in love with it from the very beginning! In my opinion she made something better than any other site, it's one of a kind, and she created it specifically for me!! It's not cookie cutter at all and I can't tell you enough how impressed I am. Clearly I've blacked out the personal details, but seriously please check out her site for any of your card needs...also in my personal opinion, she's CHEAP, super cheap...TOO cheap...she should charge much more than she does.

I'm the luckiest woman alive!

I was laying here in my bed frustrated that Dawson refused to sleep longer than an hour in his crib when it hit me...what right do I have to be aggrivated by this? How many women would give their life to be able to have their baby next to them whether it's bed time or not. How many women are without their child for one reason or another?! In ten months I haven't faced losing my child or the pains of the PICU. I don't know what its like to pray that my child makes it through the night every night but really doubt that he will. I don't know what its like to watch my son struggle to do something as simple as breathe...I am truly the most blessed woman on the planet and sometimes I have to remind myself of that. How many women will never know what its like to pull their baby off the baby gate,again and again and just one more time. Or pick up the toys off the floor or wash the bottles and sippy cups for the million and one time. I'm the lucky one.how man women would give up everything they had and then some to hear their son sa "mama" over and over or give him a bath and pretend to be oirates. Why do I take this for granted. I have a miracle happening to me every single day and that miracle is my son. Every moment he breathes makes my the luckiest woman alive. Every time he smiles,laughs,or cries I'm blessed all over again. God gave me thias wonderful creature and I'm so blessed to have him.